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In Gibraltar...

Gibraltar is a very interesting place… It is a big guardian rock protecting the whole peninsular. It doesn’t matter which part of the peninsular you are living in; you can see the guardian rock. I feel like Gibraltar has male energy… I couldn’t feel here is a place you can come and relax… Maybe because of the big Casino, maybe because of all the big ships… It is not a quiet place even in these COVİD days…
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From Cabo de Gata to Gibraltar

We did it... We sail from Barcelona to Gibraltar. We are tired but happy. I think it was easy to than what I expected. 
We anchored for a few nights in a bay (Puerto Genoves) near Cabo de Gata. The winds came in the night reaching 45 knots and like many sailors before I wondered if our anchor would hold. If it didn’t, we would be on the rocks or the beach if lucky. In the morning all was calm except the force of the wind had bent our snubber hook made from 1cm thick steel. We left in the morning in a rough sea drinking tea whilst pounding into the huge waves and swell. The wind was behind us, but I had not yet used the poles to hold the sails out in such a situation, so we sailed when we could and motored the rest. We motored through the night, on our port (left side) were huge ships all squeezed around the Spanish coast to the Alboran Sea and heading to the Straights of Gibraltar into the Atlantic and the rest of the world. 

I love to be anchored. When you wake up, you don't need t…

From Barcelona to Cabo de Gata...

First of all, sailing is hard work. When you are sailing you have to focus on it. You have to give your full attention. Saling is not always comfortable. Sometimes I feel like I'm living on a roller coaster. You have to consider how you use water, electricity and food. İf you are sailing in the night you have to do night watch every two hours. You have to get used to wind, sea and engine voices. You have to learn that your plan can always change…  As an aspie, this part is not easy for me to handle but I get used to it.  So I understood why sailing is not everybody's cup of tea. But I love it… I enjoy it... 

Karisma

When I  afraid   when we are sailing  dolphins always with me They always find me… My family in the sea When I see them  I believe I’m safe… I'll be protected and happy... Our walking routine changed when we were going to see boats around the UK with the “Kitty Home”. I started learning boat brands. Andy wanted to buy a “Hallberg-Rassy” or “Najad”. Then we thought maybe we should consider  Oyster’s, then I discovered “Amel” and Andy like it too. We started watching Delos and we both felt really excited about “Amel”. Our search changed. We started searching for Amel around Europe. In 2018 We found Karisma in Port Leucate in July and Andy definitely wanted to buy her and he did.   Karisa is an Amel Super Maramu. She is a long-distance blue water ketch-rigged cruiser packed with features like push-button electric furling and winches, watermaker, generator and washing machine. It's the attention to detail that makes her so comfortable and desirable. With two double cabins each with ensuite…

With Becky...

Birds tell us what to do   Holding the sun As if it is never down       Love makes us feel alive Sleeping in silence As if dark noises never come Dreams make heart beat fast Dreaming in blue Mother of sight Above the earth  no place to hide Above my thoughts walk through blindly  on the green lines

When Rebecca arrived, I was so excited about our week. I know she loves walking, hiking, and wildlife, but at the same time, I knew she was five months pregnant. So this could be unique for both of us.

Sitting by the fire, just woken up from a deep nap. It’s tranquil here! I knew there was no internet and no phone signal and being used to camping and walking in the wilderness that felt ok. Before I got here… now it feels like an adjustment!

The thought of a quiet evening… no internet, no films, no one is coming and going on the street outside… a little daunting, but I imagine it could be extremely grounding. I often long for a time before mobiles and internet and feel trapped by them, constantly watched, …

Elan Valley always has a surprise for you...

During the time I spent in Elan Valley I thought, learned, created, and discovered a lot… Life is totally different in Elan Valley. I was happy to participate in two different events while I was staying there and they both impacted me positively.

The first event was “An Evening with Alyn Wallace-Astro, Landscape and Timelapse Photographer” on 14 February in
Y Star Inn. Andy and I went to the event together and we had totally forgotten that it was Valentine's Day. The restaurant was nicely decorated for Valentine’s Day. Before the event started, I had a chance to talk to Alyn. His Turkish was amazing and he loves Turkey.

We had delicious bread and cheese, Cawl, and also a very special cake to celebrate… Everything I observed there was full of sincerity, simplicity and neutrality. It was interesting for me to see how people behave very differently to the English and the Welsh, to Cardiff and Valley people, to people from North, South and Mid Wales, even to village and town people… …

Hiding myself...

No straight promises  No straight love No straight path No straight art There’s no path in life When walls block the way   You break through these walls Scramble through the woods When you find your path  You can understand Only your passion leads you In this cold rabbit hole
In these Covid-19 days when everyone must stay at home, I am staying in Leamington. Early in lockdown, I felt hot and cold all over because I caught the coronavirus. Fortunately, I was lucky enough to overcome it without developing heavy symptoms or requiring hospitalisation. Although weeks have passed, I still feel tired and sluggish.


It was a great shock for me to return to the real, hard-hearted world after peaceful Elan Valley, where I lived for two months in a happy dream with mindful self-compassion, and this shock later turned into a nightmare. It was very hard for me to understand how some people have a soul darker than a starless night. It makes me shudder to think of it. I feel my life is a graveyard of buried hop…